I am finding out about myself that when life gets rough, I tend to get SUPER introverted.
My lack of posting and engagement in social media has nothing to do with my flakiness as a blogger, but the fact that life has been turned upside down and inside out and I am doing everything in my power to stay afloat.
I decided to share a subject that has recently become near and dear to me; running with placenta previa.
Placenta previa is a condition where the placenta, (the major organ that feeds your baby inutero) is fully covering or partially covering the cervix (the opening to where the baby will in 9 months or so make their entrance from).
My 20 week appointment rolled around. I am a master at reading ultra sounds so of course I was happy to see baby is doing well, (the best thing about this whole situation!) BUT, I knew that my placenta was too close to my cervix. Later on that day, my doctor called and confirmed that I have what is called a Complete Placenta Previa.
So, what does that mean for me and my pregnancy presently?
Baby is healthy.
Placenta previa is fairly common in women at their 20 week appointment and a lot of them move and woman go on to have successful, uncomplicated births.
I can still do the activity I was doing before finding out, like running, yoga, shoveling, playing with my boys, as long as I don’t have any sharp pains or spotting.
My plan for a home birth is not an option. If the placenta doesn’t grow away from my cervix it means that I will have to have a cesarean.
I could experience spotting, which is scary in my mind.
The though of being cut open is terrifying to me, as well as not getting to have the intimate contact I was able to have with my boys immediately after their births.
I had to call it quits with my running coach. I just didn’t need the pressure of a “running schedule” while trying to worry about everything else.
Nothing can be inserted vaginally. Since my mother in law was there when I found out and new that meant no sex, I’m laying it out there to you all too. While most woman revel in the idea of having an excuse not to be touched during pregnancy; I feel the contrary. Sorry if this loses some of my readers, (however, how does anyone think a person gets pregnant 😉 ). Ryan has been a trooper, but with moving, his wife possibly going through major abdominal surgery, and other life happenings, not being able to do what married people usually do is a buzz kill.
Running with placenta previa has been good so far. I am finding joy in the every day moment and not ever taking a run for granted.
I felt incredibly nervous/vulnerable at first, but then I had to tell myself that you can’t live your life in fear of the worse. I want to pay attention and make sure I don’t hurt the baby or myself, but my body likes running and I got pregnant running so as long as baby and body give it the okay worrying about it doesn’t make a whole lot of sense.
I have been backing off of the heavy lifting exercises for sure! I was using my kettle bell, but now it is yoga all the way for this pregnant runner.
I am so thankful I still have a ton of balance and coordination so while forward bends are not so fun, moves like the dancer pose make me feel strong and capable.
I am not writing a vaginal birth off just yet. I am holding on to the idea that my body will help the placenta move away from my cervix and I will be able to have a surgery-free birth.
However, I am preparing myself for the possibility through lots of research, talking with those who have gone through a c-section, and making sure that there are no stones left un-turned before that moment comes, if it does.
What am I taking away from all of this? healthy people can have hiccups just like the rest. Apparently, women who smoke, are having twins, or are over the age of 35 are more likely to have placenta previa; I am none of those criteria…the stars just didn’t align.
I am thankful I know ahead of time! I am a believer in home birth, but also being proactive so that birth day hopefully goes without a hitch. I was seeing my midwife as well as an OB, just in-case something like this came up; thank goodness!
As long as baby and I are healthy, birth will be perfect no matter how it looks. Yes, home birth gives me more peace of mind; however, thank goodness for modern medicine, because I just happen to be that rare case that truly would need a cesarean and I can accept and appreciate that.
Thank you for letting me open up and share. I really do find my blog a safe space to be as authentic as I possibly can. I realize that this might offend some people at times, but my hope is that one of my posts will find someone who needed to read it and they can find themselves not alone.
Have a wonderful Holiday All!